4:19 am ... Confusion 
Clock chimes "tic-tac" the needle to move forward, the latter do not stop running do not stop the minute to have something as indescribable as the time ... What better way to start ... And I understand why. Right now in my head there is no confusion that all this interspersed with what we call believes that "heart" is like a big cross in a big city with traffic jams and cars coming and going, a situation one can see but which is not can take nothing concrete, that's how I feel right now, without knowing what they really think, and I want to ... I am, I wake up, I'm lying in bed, I look out the window, I see the stars I turn briefly to sit, watch the computer screen as if I were to say something and continued to write ... My head will not stop, nor the biggest distraction of the world and with absolute peace of mind that comes before him ... round, round and round with mixed feelings, sadness, nostalgia to which we add more fear and paranoia ... a cocktail that is priceless ... I still think that no words in our dictionary and truth esque None to describe in some now my moods or simply feelings that arise from the deepest part of me without me realizing it ... Do you sometimes do not feel like screaming, wanting to be free and to prevent any person who walked the land shall manage the least? I do siemrpe continuously but as all this there is something to add impotence accumulated a bag fills slowly (I already spent a few full) love, friendship, love, insecurities, people miss (as dige many things, many cars of different colors and patterns on the cross ...)
Not much else to say ...
Javier.
Psdt: LMA thank you for being by my side 4:49 am.
For all that we have ... 
... to spend together, time and thousands of things that still lie ahead ...
One day you leave Gran Canaria , a melancholy that invades me ... mixed with nostalgia and a continual fear ... on his way to Madrid just over a month and a half mounted on a Talgo I thought ... I find these typical silly ... I was wrong and much also found people with a heart inmenso con una forma de ser inigualable y con una sensatez que pocas veces había visto... y nada aquello se acabó ( Como todo lo que empiza ) y yo dije una frase que pensaba cumplir me costase lo que me costase... "Esos caretos los pienso ver más veces" y con un hasta pronto me despedí... Y así fue, allí en Las Palmas de Gran Canaria me encontré despues de ese tiempo de esa corta pero a la vez larga espera... viendo caras que las identificaba como si fueran de toda la vida ... los días han ido pasando a cada cual mejor, siempre con una perfecta compañía la de esos canaries have done everything and more to make us feel at home, and that struck me most of all that we were living was good roll, nor bad gestures and bad sides, a general welfare There are few times in a coexistence and more people in this age ... But such people so ... about to leave with tears in my eyes and with a background music that describes my feelings better than I could do it ... I remember that week goes through my head over and over again as if it were a movie, and I think empizan words left over so back has to say a SOON , and ask a small favor ... much it costs the least say to us that this is not cool ... for all this created, all these feelings that will not fly through the air to more distant ignored ... and certainly and clearly pronounce two words ...
I want ...
Javier.
